CoLd stOrmy niGhtsZ

Its been nearly two months since u left me here…
These long nights, all alone and cold.
It has felt as if something was missing…
Something inside of my soul has been stolen and never returned
The emptiness inside starts to burn up within
The pain I feel, too much to explain
Too painful to bare…
The images of us as I close my eyes…
The thoughts of what we should and could be now
I feel a sharp pain stabbing into my heart
And then the feeling of heaviness flows through my body
It feels as if my heart had just been torn apart
And then sunk like a boat in an ocean of tears
My heart has been through a lot, the pain and the tears
It has tried to stay strong over these years.
But it cant take it anymore, my whole body starts feeling weak
There’s no love to pick me up
Nothing to mend my broken heart.
No one is here to keep me strong, to give me the warmth that their heart can offer…
I feel so alone without u by my side
It feels so …weird, and I everywhere I go I feel cold
Coz u arent here to hold me during the cold stormy nights
You aren’t here to kiss me and hug me when I’m sad
I used to be able to call you and you’d come right away
I used to be able to turn around and kiss you whenever I felt like
But now I cant…
Now when we meet, it is just a simple hello
Maybe if I’m lucky a hug…
Sigh*
This pain is killing me deep down inside
It hurts so much, more than words can describe
I should be over you, coz time has passed
and supposed to heal wounds?
Sigh* but I don’t know why I am still hooked on u?
Im lying in bed now with a tear falling down my face
It is cold and wet outside, the lighting and thunder strikes
I wish that u were here with me to keep me warm
To hold me in the dark as I fall asleep in your arms
I miss that cute face as you fall asleep
I miss the times you kissed me and tucked me into bed
The nights that felt like forever, it felt like time had stopped
The feeling we had when we lay together in bed
The touch of your lips sealed on mine…
I still remember those sweet kisses, tasting like apple 
The smell of your neck every time I hugged u… vanilla ~
Your cute smile I wont ever forget
And the never ending hugs … sigh*
Tears roll down my cheek as I think of you
I cant believe how much I have fallen for you
I don’t know what im feeling, love or lust?
I don’t know how love feels so I duno if I have felt it
But friends tell me I was once in love
With a beautiful stranger by the name of you
I wish I could turn back time and I’m sure I wont make the same mistake
If only you….
Loved me too…
I miss you!!

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